Let the waters rise
Let the thunder roar
Let wind howl

I will still follow You.

I throw myself at Your feet. You said, if I call out Your name, You will rescue me. I know You will hear me. I know You will not leave me abandoned. What You say is true. I so easily can be distracted. I am so wishy-washy in my ambition. I am so weak in the knees when I need to be strong. I am so helpless without You. So wont You hear my cries? Save me! You alone are the One True God. My one true desire is to dwell in Your house forever and ever. Your smile is the delight of my soul. You are my founder, and completer. You are my God, in whom I trust.

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My spirit sings to You all day long
My heart gives the beat
My breath the melody
My being resonates
Holy, Holy, Holy.

I fail
I forget
I let go of the song
I silence the symphony
Im sorry, Im sorry Im sorry.

You are my hearts desire
You are my living water
You are the song that I must sing
You are the music inside of me
I love you, I love you, I love you.
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When I build brick walls to protect myself, I push back the hand of God, and can not hide safely under His wings.

Abba Father,

My soul feels so crushed, and I'm not sure why.
Why does my spirit wrestle with these emotions?

Abba Father,

I am so desperately angry.
Why have you not redeemed the broken?

Abba Father,

How much more must I watch, and endure until You step in?
Why, Oh why, have Your people not reached out?

Abba Father,

I am not among the oppressed, but my soul is in agony for them!
My spirit churns within me over this injustice!

Abba Father,

I know You are eternally good - I trust You know what is best.
Show me how to be Your hands and feet - to those whom Your heart is turned toward.

Even though they all may hate me, and snicker at me behind my back. Even though they may lie about me, or speak curses against me. I know that you, Father, hear my heart. When I call upon You, You answer my deepest cries. So I will fall before You, Oh my beautiful savior, time and time again, because I know how truly good You are.

You, Oh God, are so good. Your kindness is unfailing. Your mercy is engulfing. You cause me to rise up from the pit in which I was placed. You lift my head, and calm my heart. What mortal thing should I fear? Will You not hear me when I cry out to You? I know, dearest Lord, that You will be with me in times of trouble. You will comfort me, and will take what my foes indented for evil, and use it for good. How high are Your ways above mine? I can not begin to comprehend! How vast is your compassion on me, that You would look upon me with favor? Will I ever understand?

May my eyes be set on things eternal. May I always long for Your hearts desire. May I worship You in good times and bad. May I sing Your praises all day long, and may my soul continue in this melody even as I rest. Oh if I could only put my ear against heavens gates, and hear the songs of the angels before You. If I could only express the melody in my heart, which rises up to You never stopping. This song that consumes me, though I do not know the notes, and can not conjure up the words. My language does not do You justice. You deserve so much more than I could ever offer.

I feel like the world is only one beat away from crashing in on me.
Everywhere I look, the veneer is beginning to chip away, to reveal a crumbling structure.
One by one the chips begin to fall from the ceiling, and I realize there is no escape.

Everyone is telling me where to go, what to believe and who to be.
And with a desperate heart I wonder:

Who do You say I am?
What do You say I am suppose to be?
Where do You say I am to go?

Your kindness leads me to repentance
Your gentleness brings me humbly to the floor of grace.
Your faithfulness has been proven though the ages
So why do I tremble now?

You are King over this all
Help me to be still, and to know You are God

You alone oh Lord are my rock
My strengh that can never be shaken

Even though the world may hate me
And many may rise aginst me
I know that you hear my cries

Ten thousand may rise against me
But I know that I am safe in Your arms

War is raging all around me
Words like swords are being thrust
And one by one the army falls
By the will of their own brigade

Why, oh Lord?
How much longer will the battle commence?
My heart is weary
And my soul is in turmoil
My eyes are black from weeping

What Am I to say, to your people?
How am I to love with the mercy of your hands?
For I have been wounded too
And am unaware of how much more I can bare
When will heaven touch earth again?

Rescue Your people, Oh God of Jacob
Deliver us as You have before
Show us Your undeserved mercy
That we may love again